Because of a past intertwined with pain, I earned a few new names.
Depression, Generalized Anxiety Disorder, and PTSD!
On the surface, I appeared fine!
But under stress and entering into new environments, I was anxious inside!
It took a lot to be me, as I embraced new environments, had to hold intelligent conversations, and exist in a World overstimulated by daily demands!
Life was difficult but made easier...
When I prepared in advance!
When I could be confident the people around me were trustworthy.
When I did things that brought me joy!
When I immersed myself in an atmosphere that was quiet, and I could think free from distractions.
Yet, it became more important for me to not only survive, but THRIVE beyond the diagnosis to know that I controlled“it” and “it” didn’t control me, my family, and my destiny.
I remember how a spiraling episode of anxiety, could send me into hours, days, and weeks into a zombie depression.
Absent in mind, present in the body (sounds odd right), yet it’s true.
It’s existing and being totally zoned out! It's sulking in a pit, seeking a way out!
It's wondering when will this horror story end for me.
But then one day, I got sick and tired!
I put a name to what I was experiencing!
I told Anxiety, Fear, PTSD, and Depression you have no authority here!
I trusted God, got help, and I commanded them to release the grip they had on me!
I believed in every battle, that it was time that I take control of the full destiny ahead of me, and anxiety, fear, PTSD, and Depression weren't invited along the ride!
I believed in every battle, that it was my time to radiate sunshine and glow.
I fought for my freedom in blood, sweat, tears, prayers, and therapy.
I embraced every hardship and came out stronger.
Now I reign as a champion - healed, happy, and whole in Christ Jesus!
Candice Phillips, M.S, BCMHC
Kingdom Mindset and Mental Health Coach
Advocate for Healing, Growth, and Transformation
P.S: A diagnosis doesn’t care about your age, ethnic background, economic status, or religion. None of us are exempt, but there is a choice to respond.
Because of my choice to seek help, fight for my freedom, and take action to protect my heart when affected by a mental health challenge; I now live free from a past painted in pain, and embrace a path prepared for purpose!
I encourage you to do the same!
Help is available! Healing is available!
P.S: If you are in need of support on your Faith and Healing journey, let’s connect to see how I can help you through a complimentary call!
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